toanewlife

SO I started my diet today, actually just eating better I guess, but I am already feeling the urge to eat something “good”. Even though I hate feeling guilty after I do it I can’t seem to shake the urge. Also I am trying to quit smoking at the same time. I know my life style is killnig me literally, but i have this “OH it won’t happen to me” attitude. Does the urge ever go away or will it always be this hard. And I’m trying to keep myself busy to keep from thinking about food, losing weight or how much I have gained, but it seems to be all I can think about. I’m one of those people that want results yesterday and I know I need to take it one day at a time. It’s just hard to to not cave in. Reading this I know I sound like a big baby, but I think getting out there makes me feel like I don’t have to keep it in. If anyone is feeling the same I would love to talk. Plus thank you to everyone for allthe supporting words. I keep reading them over and over again telling myself if I say I can do it enough… I can do it. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. OH and one more thing. I attempted to do some cardio today and I had to quit after only 15 min. Does anyone know of some starter workouts that won’t kill me but can still help me burn some calories. I got so discouraged today I really felt like quitting right then and there. BUt now my goal is to be able to finish one of those hour workouts and not have a heartattack…LOL…. God Bless!

So I just weighed and I am so mad at myself for gaining my weight back. In the last 6 months I have easily put on 15 pounds and I swore to myself I would never be over 175 again. And here I am at 180. I really hope this jolts me into taking this weight loss routine seriously. I guess I keep thinking “Oh I can’t have gained that much, my clothes still button.” I had a breast reduction March 08 and they are already almost back to presurgery size. I can’t fall back into the old me. I just can’t. Why do we let ourselves do this? I need some advice bad!